Todays you're birthday...

I was so estatic the whole day...thinking how you reacted to the birthday box I sent you. Wondering why you havent texted me yet that youve recieved it. A little bit worried that it mightve not arrived on time or worse...I got the wrong address.
Then I texted you fine it was just a forwarded message but I was thinking that might start the conversation. And off course I was right! You replied by saying that I rock and that you lovde everything in it. I was smiling by myself for about 30 minutes. Then I replied that Im glad you liked it.

Then I started crying...pathetic I know. But it was all tears of joy. Holy crap I even remember hearing myself say that I can die now because for the first time in ages I made you happy thinking how much I made youre day. I know...this love sucks. Its making me so dramatic and pathetic. But on the brighter side I realized how much youve taught me. You have taught me to love selflessly and unconditionally. Not thinking if I would get something in return. And just as I have said in the long run...it wouldnt matter if well end up together because I know that whatever the outcome may be...I will still have you even just for a friend.

Loving someone really makes someone settle for less huh? Settle for whatever it is that comes close. I wouldnt deny the fact that sometimes I still wish that wed end up together instead of you ending up with someone else but in reality...deep in my heart all I ever wanted is for you to be happy. And I know that if Im not the right one for you...in the end GOD will heal me and give someone that will make me feel a far more wonderful feeling than what I now have for you.

happy birthday...ü